On disappointment and insouciance
7 Jul 2012
Disappointments have been creeping in. Stealing quietly through the cracks and taking up residence. Under my skin.
The chicken is a bit boring. The tea tastes ordinary. Will the sun ever bloody shine this winter? Can we have a decent political debate in this country? The work’s a bit too hard. The washing never ends. My god it is cold. Could I really be sick again? Really?
Even though I have tried to foster insouciance, cultivate it, nurture it; it won’t come.
I haven’t sauntered smugly through this winter. I have shivered and huddled and dogged by sickness missed too many brisk morning walks. And it has been unrelentingly frosty and grey. Even I, who love winter, I truly do, can’t love this one.
Then a big disappointment. A missed opportunity. The chance to escape the mundane for a while, vanished.
Gracious, I drew myself up to my full height. There was no insouciance, but at least I didn’t pout in disappointment.
I got a hair cut, got my brows waxed razor-sharp and drank martinis.
The sun shone today. I haven’t written anything much but at least I read some great blogs and had some tea.
Now I am going to flounce off with only a whiff of the bitter residue of this disappointing week trailing me.
Jul 08, 2012 @ 18:31:33
Oh, I am looking forward to finding a nice spot in the sun with you. Lovely post. X
Jul 09, 2012 @ 20:54:49
I cannot wait to find a sunny spot in Sydney.
Exciting. xo
Jul 08, 2012 @ 11:22:11
Wonderful, just wonderful.
I had some disappointments this week and I responded with sulking and not insouciance. Shall remedy that right this second!!
Jul 09, 2012 @ 20:53:58
Thank you.
It was hard to find the inner reserve but worth it.
I hope you have found some insouciance now. xo
Jul 08, 2012 @ 10:34:47
And no that is not a word, or wasn’t, but it expressed my meaning …
Jul 09, 2012 @ 20:52:33
It is a word now.
Thank you xo
Jul 08, 2012 @ 10:32:21
Inspired by your non-insouciancistic start to the day …
Jul 08, 2012 @ 10:20:15
This winter is brought to you by red wine and thermal underwear. It’s been bitterly cold and wet on the east coast, hasn’t it? I think we’re all clomping along with you. Sometimes though, a bitter winter will lead into a productive and vibrant spring. You’ll see. x
Jul 09, 2012 @ 20:51:39
After I wrote this I went out in the garden. The tarragon is sending new little tiny shoots. It bodes well. And it will improve the chicken no end. xo
Jul 07, 2012 @ 15:12:37
Now that is some great winter writing. Here’s to razor-sharp brows and martinis. Long may their muse reign.
Jul 09, 2012 @ 20:50:35
Thank you my dear.
I think the head space created by a night out was essential for getting it back together.
Nov 02, 2012 @ 21:27:46
What a remarkable talent you have!!! X